dripping in anticipation
2004-07-16
@ 12:57 p.m.
bah. i never update like i should in this thing anymore. it's so difficult to find to time to do so. i feel that lately i'm putting all of my energy and effort into working and mentally preparing myself for new york. i'm telling you, the closer the date comes in my mind, the more i find myself becoming anxious and worried. i'm so worried about money. and about friends and family, and every other little detail i can think of. my neck is tense and swollen from the stress of it all. i don't know what to think or how to interpret all of this new information. i feel that all i can do now is just take a deep breath and anticipate the hopefully inevitable.
man, and so much has been happening since i last wrote in here. i've been visiting so many friends. it's quite strange, actually. almost as if i'm getting out my last goodbyes. it's heart-wrenching for me to think that i won't see any of these people for quite some time. all of these individuals who in some way or another have shaped me into the person i am today. i hate to lose them. yet some things simply must be done.
right now i'm in baton rouge. another little mini-road trip i decided to take before i left, using this time to visit ivy and get to meet her new party posse. i like baton rouge. it's nice. very interesting mix of people down here. it's not everyday you go to a little club called the "spanish moon" where preps and goths hang out together in peaceful harmony bobbing their heads to 80's music. very lovely indeed. i'm also quite proud of the fact that i drove here completely independent and void of anyone's help except for the directions i got from ivy the previous evening. it was a nice little drive, except for the fact that my air conditioning decided to die on me ten minutes after i left monroe. so essentially the entire ride down here consisted of me dripping in sweat and listening to mixed cd's. who cares. i survived.
so now i'm off to locate more friends in this fun little junction of louisiana and see what other mischief i can muster up. can't wait to anticipate what will happen next.
